Tuesday 22 June 2010

Teary-eyed I am


It rained this morning. Both outside and inside the Kelisa-Cooper today.

Fatin and Farah appeared happy this morning despite the gloomy weather. Waking them up was a piece of cake. They were still sleepy when Susi ushered them into the car. I had their bottles ready, just in case. Farah finished hers shortly after we passed Kak Sal's house. which is just a stone throw away from ours. Punyerla cepat dia minum. Anyways.

On the way to Hani B, Farah and I kept uttering good norning teacher, how are you teacher, etc, keeping our moods light and happy. HOWEVER, as soon as she sees the teacher approaching our car, she started to freak out, which in turned made Fatin cried too. I decided to help out by carrying Farah to the kindy while Fatin was ferried by a teacher. But as soon I put Farah down, Fatin took a look and saw me. Both Fatin and Farah started to cry and clinged dear life to me. As a result, I almost took the day off out of pity for my babies. Sedihnyer when you see your kids are taken away from you. Their don't-leave-me-mama look was heart shattering... I truly hope that it will get easier as the days pass by.

Farah and Fatin sayang, Mama loves you more than words can say. It is limitless and boundless. InsyaAllah, nothing would ever change that. However, sayang mama, mama needs to work. Please understand mama's predicament. I would only be leaving you several hours in a day. We'll see each other before the clock strikes 5, k? I promise.

Anyway, I had a lovely dinner at 5.30 p.m. today comprising of hot-from-the-stove nasi with sambal ikan bilis which I ccoked from scratch and siput sedut, courtesy of Restoran Samudra Pantai. The result, nasi 2 pinggan penuh. Burp!!


Monday 21 June 2010

Crazy Days Ahead...

Like the title? Hehe...

Today is the first day of the many crazy days waithing ahead. The reason? My maid, Susi, is going back for good come this Sunday, 27th June. I believe I may have mentioned it in my previous entry. Hence, to prepare for that, I had send Farah and Fatin to a nursery near my school. I decided to send them earlier before Susi's departure for several reasons.

First, I need to know that my babies would be able to adapt to the changes. They are able to mingle with other kids and the transition to being the sole attention of a caretaker to teachers who would provide care and entertainment to not only them, but few others as well. And if things do not work out well, I would still have time to seek other alternatives.

Second, I need to know and organise myself, better. I woke up earlier than usual today (mind you, not easy after a two-week holiday yeh?) to get the kids prepared and leave the house by 6.30. Why very early? I need to stop by at the usual stop at  En.Hubby for Farhan's breakfast. Cook breakfast at home? Nanti lagik lambat. Mana nak clean up lagik kan. Anyways. Since I haven't registered the kids yet, I had to bathe them as I had to stop at school first to punch in and obtain permission from the Principal to leave school for a moment. So, today was very hectic and chaotic for me.

However, I am still very lucky as I could leave the house as it is. Susi kan ader lagik. Hehe... Come next week, I would have to wake up earlier than usual, most probably as early as Mr.Hubby to get the house organised, bla bla bla... So, as the title says... CRAZY DAYS AHEAD!

Psssttt... In light with today's event, I totally have my hats off to single mothers out there who have to single handed care for their children in the short and busy mornings and entertain their every whims after returning home. MUMS rock the world!

Saturday 19 June 2010

Life Gentle Reminders

I am now back in Port Dickson, in the loving arms of En. Hubby. When I saw my kids sleeping at their usual spot in my bedroom, it felt just rite. It gave me a warm fuzzy feeling looking at them so at peace. The warmth gets better when I heard 'gentle' snores oozing from the man whom I said I do to. It feels good to know that things are back at their usual pace and form. A gentle reminder nomero uno that I'm blessed and blissed to be surrounded by my love ones.

The other reminder was when I accompanied my mil to a distant relative funeral. Many people attended her procession and that made me realized that what matter most is that we have to give our best and best side to everyone we meet, befriend and associate with. May with what we give will be remembered fondly by others, and be rewarded by Allah.

Another reminder is when I watched Santau on Astro while breatfeeding Fatin after the funeral rites. A reminder that Allah is Almighty, and as His servant, I MUST obey His orders. After all, that is the only thing I will take with me when we meet. Hopefully, I would remember what has been reminded. AMIN. And ehem! I gotta be on a diet babe! when I saw the husband (in the movie) had difficulty and carrying the wife as she was sick made me shudder thinking how Mr.Hubby would heave heavily if he were to carry me about. In this plus size of mine! Mak oiii... mau tercaabut nyawa dier. Kehkehkeh

Pss: I know my language is tunggang langgang, but as long it can be understood, Oklah tuh.

Tuesday 15 June 2010

Udah Day 9 ghupernyer

Pejam celik pejam celik, I have been under abah's wings for 9 days. And today, the Fared clan would move to the legendary Legend Hotel in KL for four days and three nights. As a sign of gratitude for taking us under his care, I've cooked an early lunch for abah.
And today's menu is...

1. Ikan goreng
2. Paprik ayam, udang and sotong
3. Pucuk Paku Goreng Belacan
4. Telur Dadar for Hariz

Kahkahkah... What an entry. Bukannya gempak mana pun lauk tuh. (sheepish smile). Anyways, here are the pics.


Paprik


Pucuk Paku


Telur dadar

Monday 14 June 2010

Yesterday and today...

Did not do much, did not even cook lunch nor dinner.

Courtesy of Adam and Abah, we drove to the Hornbill Restaurant at the KL Bird Park for lunch that was rather expensive, yet the ambience was magnificent. Then, we headed off to Tugu Negara, much to my children's amazement. But the weather was extremely hot that both Fatin and Farah turned red under the sun. We rushed back to the car for the aircond and Adam took us around TTDI and KL area. We were lucky that traffic was rather easy flowing but as the clock struck 4.00, the younger kids had enuff of the view in the car that they started throwing tantrums so we headed back to Abah's residence.

We bought banana fritters from an old family friend, Uncle Din, and that was dinner for the day. Hehe... I guess Farhan was rather hungry so he drew a timetable, organising our eating pattern for the next day. Haha...

So, for today's breakfast, I made fried meehoon. Lunch was KFC, coutersy of Abang Hezal via Kak Salbiah. There are still some chicken on the table, so I guess, I've covered dinner also. Hmm... talk about being a lazy mama.

Why am I not cooking up a storm? My heart doesn't feel right at the moment. Hanging out at shopping complex still did not do any betterment to my heart. Reason? Dunno. Maybe I'm missing a certain someone in my life. Or that me and a particular person are always at the wrong end. Buat ini salah, buat itu salah. I feel like giving up. But I know that is not the solution. Malas fikir, but the matter would always flashes in my mind.

One question that is always at the back of my mind is... what happens if I decide to call it quits?

Saturday 12 June 2010

Giler rajin...

Not that rajin as the title suggests. Sajer jer nak menggempakkan suasana.

Anyways, with excellent wireless in the house and still with a maid, I might as well logged on the net and try improve whatever knowledge that I can. I believe my laptop is of a good component, yet I only use it for work purposes. I realllllllllllyyyyyyyyy should explore its full capabilities. And I only have until Tuesday to give it a shot. Come Legend, no more wireless unless I go to a certain floor. Amat melecehkan...

Anyways, today's menu (to show that I'm still the chef) are... (pssttt... the pictures are courtesy of google archives as I couldn't find the hp cable)


A Crack In Heaven



Sounds a little sad, huh?

I am... for Mr.Fred has gone back home yesterday evening. I actually shed a few tears unexpectedly. Entahler, terjiwang pulak when he kissed me farewell. I would only be seeing him next Thursday, at the customary holiday ritual at The Legend Hotel in KL. Reservations have been made for 4 days 3 nights beginning on the 15th till 18th June 2010.

Today's activity, tak tau nak buat aper. Public places would be crowded during the weekends. Should have gallivanted during the weekdays. Sigh... Nothing seems right today, when Mr. Fred is not around. Hanging out at the Thaqwa Restaurant wasn't as much fun. Bear the nostalgic moments ya... Jiwang mode nih.

So, this is where would stay next week. Can't wait. (pics courtesy of the web, hence more than meet the eyes. Kehkehkeh)


The Living Room, before my children enter the apartment


Living area. You can see the couch has been turned into a sofa bed


This is usually where the 2nd room looks alike


The Kids central activity.


Friday 11 June 2010

Another Day in Gombak. Day 5

Another day in paradise... to me.

Mr. Fred is is Gombak for the nite. Fells bliss that your love ones are under the same roof. He arrived just sometime before Maghrib and after the three-rakaat requirement to our Maker, we headed to Ikea. I have plans to convert Susi's room into the kids main laire. I feel it is about time that the children should sleep separately from us, the adults. But just Farhan and Khadijah for the time being.

The kids were jumping up and joy, trying out beds and kid's furniture, while I was browsing though night lamps for the room, when suddenly, jeng..jeng..jng.. Ikea experienced a black-out. Khadijah shouted for me in terror and I was rather surprised the two smaller infants kept their cool. In one minute, the emergency lights were on as I was gropping my way towards them. The alarms went off and the best thing was, everyone in Ikea kept their calm and could still continue shopping and putting things into their trolleys. Trust us Malaysians to boost up the economy at all times, eh? I gathered a flower-shaped light and grabbed Fatin and Khadijah while Mr. Fred held on to Farhan and Farah. As we went down the escalators manually, the announcements were made to keep the customers' reassurance, which I felt was rather unnecessary as they were still shopping and moving at their own sweet pace to the check-out counter. But one good thing about this foreign-and-big-name-shopping-centre is all emergencies are handled well and efficiently that by the time the Fared clan reached the cash registers, the lights were on and everything went back to normal. And hey presto, we contributed RM400+ to the sales last night. Huhu... (mujur ader blackout, kalau idak... I shudder thinking about it!)

This morning, after a very simple breakfast, Mr.Fred, Farah, Fatin and I, hopped on Abang Hezal's bike and took a ride at the Gombak residential area. Ronda2 and we stopped for another round of morning drink at Restoran Taqwa. It felt just right, hanging out there, drinking our coffee and teh tarik while the two Fs had nasi lemak. May not be as savvy as hanging out in Damansara or Bangsar, but still... cool enuff for me. Hehehe

So, todays lunch menu was cooked rather early in light of Friday prayers...

Nasi putih (picture courtesy of Google)


Ayam Masak Asam Pedas

Kobis Masak Lemak


Ayam Goreng Kicap (for the kids)

Thursday 10 June 2010

Masak lagi at Day 4 @ Ghumah Abah



Ari-ari citer masak. Hehe... Bukannya aper. Tulah kojo den setiap ari kalo kat Gombak nih. Bukannya pandai sangat masak pun, cuma siankan kat abah. Every day, makan masakan pembantu rumah dari seberang nih. Lagipun, inilah waktunya aku membayar balik jasa abah yabg telah mendidik aku dari kecil lagi. Hehe

So, today's menu are:
1. Nasi putih
2. Tomyam campur
3. Sayur Asparagus Goreng
4. Telur bungkus

Abah's verdict... Yum!Yum!





Wednesday 9 June 2010

Todays Menu - Day 3 In Gombak


I am maidless today. Both Susi and Heni (my brother's helper) were given a day off to enjoy themselves. Susi would be going back for good come this 27th June. I might as well start the practise of being a Super-Mom today. [Macamlaer dia sorang jer dalam dunia ni yang ader anak ramai dan bekerja. cheh! Wakaka...]Anyways...

You can't blame me for being overdramatic in this maidless scenario, ok? I had helped since Khadija enter this world. So, to handle the forte after bearing 4 kids, on my own, won't be an easy task! But, insyaAllah, I'll survive.

So, back to the topic, since I was maidless, and with handling the 4 kids which include a sick Farhan, I only managed to cook ... Mee goreng and bubur lambuk. En. Abah took pity on me (or himself), he bought Nasi Beriani Ayam and Kambing for us. Hehe... So much for being a superwoman. Kahkahkah...





Tuesday 8 June 2010

Menu of the day... Day 2 at En. Abah's

When I am back in Gombak, I believe I am a far cry from who or what I am in PD. Don't ask me why, but nothing beats the feeling of being at your own house. Not that my in-laws put a stop at anything that I wanna do at home, but... it's just different with your own family. So, when I am back with En. Abah, I become a homemaker. I cook, I clean, and I feel that my maid likes it here too. Mana idaknyer, dia pulak macam mem, sitting around, reading the newspapers, watching aruna, while I do most of the work. Teruk kan? It's not that I don't order her about, but I hate it when she and her cousin, my brother's maid, are together. Macam tak geti bahasa langsung. Gish! Anyways, this is digressing from the topic. 

Anyway, being the homemaker that I am (not!), here is the menu for today. Kari ikan and ayam goreng. Abah's verdict = sedap, tapi tak boleh challenge arwah mak. Hmm... Kena belajar lagik ler gamaknyer....



Home Sweet Home

After a long, long while, I am finally home at abah's place in Gombak. Nothing beats coming back to the place where you have been brought up, spent most of your time growing up. This house has so much memories for me.

According to Abah, this house is only a year younger than I am. Which makes it... ehem, adalah beberapa tahun-mahun. Hehe... Anyways, what make it extra special this time is that this might be the last time I'll be back to this house. Perhaps the next time I'm back, the house will be torn down and another new abode will rise. My dad has given the house to my big bro and he has decided to major renovate it to accomodate the whole of Ahmad clan. He plans to build to a double storey house with his family occupying the top floor. There would be only two rooms on the ground floor, abah's & mine (share ler...) and adam's. I dunno the whole details, but the rough's plan is that.

I'm happy that my brother is willing to shoulder the responsibility of upgrading the house. The house is old and in dire need of repair here and there. Itupun, alhamdulillah, my brother had done renovations to the toilet and bathroom after my late mom had renovated the front area. That is the case with houses, kan? Just like cars, they need constant care and repair. Hence, keep your cash aplenty, folks....

Thursday 3 June 2010

Me life's ups and downs

The Yess...
  • cuti sekolah is just around the corner, so En. Abah, get your house, mind and nerves ready to be disturbed by yours truly and her abundance children invading your property. 2 minggu tuh... I'll bet you would be happy when the holiday ends. 
  • I finished my marking! Yabedabedoo... total holiday mode. Shopping, relaxing...
  • Would be staying longer than usual. Almost two weeks. Huhu...
  • Was awarded extra cash to spend. Alhmadulillah, ader rezeki En. Abah yer...
  • Tak sabar nak anta farah and fatin to a nursery. Hope they will have fun and dipermudahkan segala urusan in sending them there

The Nooozzz...
  • Leaving En. Hubby behind. I'm sorry sayang, but I know when I'm not wanted. I need space and time to recuperate and bounce back...
  • Will be without a helper after a long time of self-pampering sdn.bhd. Kena reschedule life after the holiday mode. Kena rajin after this. I have to learn to handle the house hold chores and the children by myself. En. Hubby - kan dia dah keluar keje by 4.00 a.m. Camanek nak tolong. Semoga dipermudahkan olehNya dan semoga juga aku ni makin rajin.
  • and due to point two, my mil would be happy and delighted that En. Hubby and my rendesvous hours would be limited.
  • takut gak my temper would be incontrollable when I'm tired.
  • no mp
  • the hole in my pocket would be bigger as I have to fork out more for the nursey, extra help, cooking... Not easy to maintain a large family, eh?

In short, I actually look forward to another tumble in my life. I called it a tumble, not a hindrance, as I believe this could help me to optimize my capabilities. I could learn to improvise myself when I have to handle and care for the children and house by myself. I do pray that I will not succumb to my emotions and negative feelings, especially if things do not go well as planned. But I could only plan, Allah determines the best.  Manalaaa tahu, the bonus of losing weight would finally fall on me. Kan??? Bestnyer... Anyways...